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A Gasp of My Soul

Things have been hard here lately. It almost seems as if people are like puzzle pieces. You start out as one lonely puzzle piece, you find another piece that seems to fit right up next to you, and you continue through this process over and over again, until all of your lives come together to form a big picture. But now, I feel like a defective puzzle piece… all alone. Better yet, I’m a puzzle piece that has been misplaced into the wrong box. The pieces I connect with are somewhere else. All I’m left with is the hope that sometime soon I will find those that which I can connect with, a place where I am a part of a a big picture.

Have my friends moved on, have I become a fond but distant memory? I can recall a time when I had begun to get a glimpse of what the bigger picture looked like. Have my fellow puzzle pieces continued to build their picture without me? I have these images in my brain of a picture coming together but my piece is not there. The pieces I was once connected to have gone on without me… discovering more and more of the big picture. How much I long to be a part of something again. How tired I have become of trying to connect to a picture that I’m not part of.

The problem with disconnection is that without it, I have no way of fulfilling my purpose. It’s like life without oxygen, a slow a painful suffocation of my soul. I’ve become a witness to my own soul’s deterioration. This is the sound of my soul gasping for community!